I have always believed that the brave have a clear vision of what they want and go for it amidst strife. I was optimistic and excited when the semester begun. I believed that my pursuit for social justice round the world would simply be successful. I might have expressed my enthusiasm in my first essay that would have been unrealistic, but I am far from that. As the semester went on, my idealism shifted to a more realistic vision only because I knew that my quest would not be without challenges and obstructions. I knew that what awaited me would not be easy. My goal, as I said in the beginning of the semester, was to eradicate fear and as Quigley said that one cannot love others without loving oneself, I knew that I would first have to deal with the fears I had before I started advocating for fairness while eradicating fear.
Despite accomplishing many things, my own fear of failure is the one thing I have never been able to deal with or face. Having being taught to shield others from what they dreaded most I never was concerned about anything. My attitude therefore during my entire practice gave me the ability to see loss as something that would propel me to be a better person. This semester I saw things differently because the fear that I had not only gave me more obstacles in terms of my career as a lawyer but also made it difficult for me to clearly ascertain if I wanted to be a lawyer in the long run.
I have learnt that it is vital while one is moving forward to take time and reflect where they have come from as we derive rich learning material from looking back. I have been able to gain experience by trying to work as a lawyer in the clinic. It has not been in vain because I have gained lessons that would build me up in my path to becoming one. There is a picture that is put out there that for one to be in a particular job, you have to dress or behave in a certain way, It dawned on me that I do not have to behave in any specific manner whether I am an attorney or human rights advocate to be seen as an accomplished fellow. I am ready to learn from others as well as from my own skills during practice.
